2 years ago, I took my vows as a Buddhist, by vows I mean take refuge in the Buddha, Dharma and the Sangha. It has changed my life forever. Before I took my vows I had a crazy monkey mind, reaction to everything was impulsive. I lived in constant anger and I got angry one night and I hurt someone. I lost control and I had no compassion. I allowed my anger to dictate my life. I played a lot of sports in my youth and had a good time. It was an escape to an abusive situation I found myself IN.
So what is my current understanding of Buddhism. As luck would have it, I already had a wide understanding in Buddhism, without knowing it. I know thus far that Buddhism is more than a religion, my understanding of Buddhism was that it was just different I really had no formal idea of what it was. I was drawn to it because of the quiet aspect of meditation. It seem as those who practiced Buddhism had a certain calm in them. I for one love the quiet, loud noise is a distraction for me. Unfortunately, I learn about Buddhism in prison, some how it was not so unfortunate.
Since I took my vows 2 years ago, I found it to be so much more. My personality is such that I had already detached myself from the “world” by default, by my incarceration. What I’ve come to find out is that “prison” is a defacto Monastery. Within the last two years I’ve been a real fan, the logic, the nonlinear dynamic of Buddhism, The Dept. My understanding is like a vast ocean and I could only hope to grasp it like a true Bodhisattva.
Thanks to IBS, Shirley Tam, Danny Tam, Ven Hueiguang and Ven Xian Zhong. I am a better person.
President Gems of the Valley Sangha
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